Nostalgic

Thoughts invaded -
Memories evaded for so long, but reminiscence still hangs in the air
And it's there -
Like - the way your cologne lingers on my skin after being close
I didn't know -
That - I'd miss you this much
To be touched -
By you has become coveted - by me 
See, it's this insanity that keeps me thinking
Never speaking - always drinking - in your every action from afar
All I have are memories
If you wanna call them that - I hardly call them fact
Because I've added in my own ending - still pending the answer I expected
Though you neglected to say it all...
I told you - I know you
My - mind is reeling with possibilities
Oh could it be?
How would it be?
This isn't me -
So I - change
Rearrange
Evade my thoughts
Except that I'm not - over it
"You don't get to pick" they say
"But it's making me sick" I say
Oh how I despise nostalgia today